Where The Sidewalk Cracks.

It only takes one phone call to make me realize what I've been avoiding all this while. All the thoughts and memories came rushing through me and suddenly my heart drops a beat. I suddenly realized that I still do care. I am never the one who shows how I feel, no matter how upset I may get, I will always try to put up a good front and comfort myself by saying that everything will be just fine. Everything is fine. I just can't help but to wonder how will things turn out to be had it not ended this way.

Take a leap of faith. 

I did. And I could never be more grateful for the courage God had given me. Sometimes, I tend to take things for granted. What I have in front me, I want more. I want what I can't get. There's always  someone selfish inside trying to push its way through me. At times, I relent. But sometimes, I gave in. And looking back through the recent years, I can't believe I've done those things. Things I wish I didn't do, things I wish I could have done better. 

I didn't believe you at first, all the things you told me. Because everything you said, no longer mean a thing. Why do the calls keep coming in, after all this while. Why can't we put a stop to this, once and for all. Why did we throw away the things, that were once of an importance to us. And why did we keep pretending, as if things will get better in time. It never did. And that is why I walked away.

The phone call, that I received few days ago. It was shocking, but I wasn't mad or happy. I was just......dumbfounded. I knew it was coming, all the things you've been telling, you know you've been stepping off on the wrong foot. You did it anyway, because you said you don't believe in the four letter word anymore. But look now, where has it got you.

Life is all about making choices. 

Sometimes, you make the right one. And sometimes, you make the wrong one. It's okay to make mistakes, but its not okay if you make the same mistake over and over again. And its not okay if you know you've made the wrong choice but continue to do it anyway because it gives you the easy way out. You may find solace in others because you want to be loved. But tell me, if you have found what you're looking for, then why do you still make me a part of your life.

Can you see your reflection in my eyes,

Of it used to be, it was and it had,
I still do care, but you know it doesn't mean the other way,

I only wish you well.